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Hello!
It's been a while since I have updated my deviantart account. I am still drawing Haikyuu and Snk, but I don't think the things I draw would attract any crowd here. I've been posting more stuff on my tumblr account and currently, I am drawing for my SnK Hospital AU for which I've been on and off drawing since 2014. I have one more arc to go through. I think I can do it
It's been a while since I have updated my deviantart account. I am still drawing Haikyuu and Snk, but I don't think the things I draw would attract any crowd here. I've been posting more stuff on my tumblr account and currently, I am drawing for my SnK Hospital AU for which I've been on and off drawing since 2014. I have one more arc to go through. I think I can do it
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2018 Retrospective
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Hello!
As usual, it's time to look back at the events that happened in 2018 and reflect
). 2018 seems to have passed quite fast, but many things also seem to have happened during it.
January was a very long month. I was sick for a few days and I already started feeling that I might struggle with having any will to draw.
February was interesting. Watched Black Panther and had some problems with my joints....bc I was only 25 and my body started working against me.
In March I went to the mountains with one of my friends and her work colleagues...and there I discovered how the whole "party scene"is not for me. Also discovered that Jaeger stays with you long long after you drank it. Ugh. It seems that in March I tried drawing a bit, but I still felt that this time, the art block might linger for longer.
Also in March, the crew of Engeki Haikyuu reunited for their spring performance of Start of the Giant. I was very excited about this because of the familiar faces of those who play Kuroo, Kenma, Bokuto and the new faces of Ushijima. Also, they brought back Tanaka Keita for Daichi and I was super ecstatic. However, only 2 days since he started, Kouki (Bokuto) broke his foot and had to be replaced. I felt for this kid a lot and I spent many hours just thinking about the poor guy. He was replaced by Takumi (who player Konoha in the previous stage play) and now I felt scared and sorry for him, because he had less than 20 days to prepare for the role. But he nailed it so hard and I am so proud of him.
In April, I drew a bit more for my HQ Hogwarts AU, but little did I know that that would be my last drawing posted for the next 3 months. Also in April I bought my Samsung S3 tablet (expensive little bitch) especially to be able to draw on it, thinking that maybe it's just the idea of having to sit at the table to draw that inhibited me. But...no. It was just art block. So, no drawings on paper or tablet.
May marched in with me getting my pair of glasses (hello HD!) and also with me starting my long journey with the dentist...
I don't remember anything significant happening in June, other than me going to the dentist almost every week. Maybe the fact that the couch broke and we had to wait for it to be replaced another month or so)
Now July rolled in with the excitement of SNK Season 3. Also for some reason, it was during that time that my mind just told me "it's time to write the eruri fanfiction that's been brewing in your mind since that one morning in 2015". And I did. I just started writing. I haven't written fanfics since 2013. I was....rusty to say the least. But man, did it feel good to write! And also, that's when I started drawing again.
August was a continuation of July's "Eruri wave" . Mmm, the angst was delicious to write and draw. I finished the fanfic in a month. And I kept drawing scenes from it both on tablet and paper.
In September I attended my cousin's wedding and it was crap. Also in September I started posing the fanfic on AO3 and I am still surprised that even now I would get a comment saying that they liked the fanfic (when I myself feel that it isn't that great, part for some specific scenes). It encouraged me to...just feel better abt myself and maybe aim to write more.
Work started getting very busy by November and so, my time and inspiration started fading away again. I wanted to be able to write part 2 of the fanfiction so that I can process Erwin's death (after 2 years of not wanting to cope) , but I guess I was just not able to get back into the necessary atmosphere to be able to write smth good, smth that made people (and myself) feel smth.
So, in October my journey to the dentist finally ended. I hope I won't have to go there too soon. November came and went- I guess important to mention here is that we went out to a club and I was sick the next day. Not worthy of remembering)
As always, I had to force myself to feel anything but apathy for Christmas, but still failed. The only good thing was the few days off from work and the workload seemingly decreasing for once. Now, as I am writing this, I am waiting for the night to go to a New Year's "party" . Never been invited anywhere for New Year's Eve so this is smth worth doing
I hope that 2019 will treat us kind. I hope that in 2019 I will be able to draw some more, maybe write some more ( part 2 of SNK season 3 is going to destroy me) and maybe move forward with the SNK Hospital AU. Oh yeah, this year I drew a few more pages for it, after not drawing one single panel since October 2016.
Cheers!
As usual, it's time to look back at the events that happened in 2018 and reflect
). 2018 seems to have passed quite fast, but many things also seem to have happened during it.January was a very long month. I was sick for a few days and I already started feeling that I might struggle with having any will to draw.
February was interesting. Watched Black Panther and had some problems with my joints....bc I was only 25 and my body started working against me.
In March I went to the mountains with one of my friends and her work colleagues...and there I discovered how the whole "party scene"is not for me. Also discovered that Jaeger stays with you long long after you drank it. Ugh. It seems that in March I tried drawing a bit, but I still felt that this time, the art block might linger for longer.
Also in March, the crew of Engeki Haikyuu reunited for their spring performance of Start of the Giant. I was very excited about this because of the familiar faces of those who play Kuroo, Kenma, Bokuto and the new faces of Ushijima. Also, they brought back Tanaka Keita for Daichi and I was super ecstatic. However, only 2 days since he started, Kouki (Bokuto) broke his foot and had to be replaced. I felt for this kid a lot and I spent many hours just thinking about the poor guy. He was replaced by Takumi (who player Konoha in the previous stage play) and now I felt scared and sorry for him, because he had less than 20 days to prepare for the role. But he nailed it so hard and I am so proud of him.
In April, I drew a bit more for my HQ Hogwarts AU, but little did I know that that would be my last drawing posted for the next 3 months. Also in April I bought my Samsung S3 tablet (expensive little bitch) especially to be able to draw on it, thinking that maybe it's just the idea of having to sit at the table to draw that inhibited me. But...no. It was just art block. So, no drawings on paper or tablet.
May marched in with me getting my pair of glasses (hello HD!) and also with me starting my long journey with the dentist...
I don't remember anything significant happening in June, other than me going to the dentist almost every week. Maybe the fact that the couch broke and we had to wait for it to be replaced another month or so
)Now July rolled in with the excitement of SNK Season 3. Also for some reason, it was during that time that my mind just told me "it's time to write the eruri fanfiction that's been brewing in your mind since that one morning in 2015". And I did. I just started writing. I haven't written fanfics since 2013. I was....rusty to say the least. But man, did it feel good to write! And also, that's when I started drawing again.
August was a continuation of July's "Eruri wave" . Mmm, the angst was delicious to write and draw. I finished the fanfic in a month. And I kept drawing scenes from it both on tablet and paper.
In September I attended my cousin's wedding and it was crap. Also in September I started posing the fanfic on AO3 and I am still surprised that even now I would get a comment saying that they liked the fanfic (when I myself feel that it isn't that great, part for some specific scenes). It encouraged me to...just feel better abt myself and maybe aim to write more.
Work started getting very busy by November and so, my time and inspiration started fading away again. I wanted to be able to write part 2 of the fanfiction so that I can process Erwin's death (after 2 years of not wanting to cope) , but I guess I was just not able to get back into the necessary atmosphere to be able to write smth good, smth that made people (and myself) feel smth.
So, in October my journey to the dentist finally ended. I hope I won't have to go there too soon. November came and went- I guess important to mention here is that we went out to a club and I was sick the next day. Not worthy of remembering
)As always, I had to force myself to feel anything but apathy for Christmas, but still failed. The only good thing was the few days off from work and the workload seemingly decreasing for once. Now, as I am writing this, I am waiting for the night to go to a New Year's "party" . Never been invited anywhere for New Year's Eve so this is smth worth doing
I hope that 2019 will treat us kind. I hope that in 2019 I will be able to draw some more, maybe write some more ( part 2 of SNK season 3 is going to destroy me) and maybe move forward with the SNK Hospital AU. Oh yeah, this year I drew a few more pages for it, after not drawing one single panel since October 2016.
Cheers!
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2018 journal
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Hello! I normally do these journal posts at the beginning of a new year but for reason I've been putting this one off....
So 2017 was an interesting year. Did a LOT of art this year (+40) deviations submitted and I am very grateful that I've had enough inspiration and time to put pen to paper to recreate some of my favorite headcannons. Again, Haikyuu took center stage although the manga had let me down a lot (that match lasted way too long).
Work wise it was good. I grew at my work place and I can say that I am finally feeling ok when I go to work in the morning. The colleagues are good and the pay is good.
Health wise 2017 wasn't that good...had to go to the doctor for a bit in the later half and that was fun. Also it seems that ever since I turned 25 my body is working against me.
I hope 2018 will treat me better. So far it didn't start ok....some health problems and TOTAL lack of inspiration (as you can see by the lack of posts so far).
Things to look forward tho: SnK season 3, the summer production of Engeki Haikyuu and some Marvel movies
Cheers!
So 2017 was an interesting year. Did a LOT of art this year (+40) deviations submitted and I am very grateful that I've had enough inspiration and time to put pen to paper to recreate some of my favorite headcannons. Again, Haikyuu took center stage although the manga had let me down a lot (that match lasted way too long).
Work wise it was good. I grew at my work place and I can say that I am finally feeling ok when I go to work in the morning. The colleagues are good and the pay is good.
Health wise 2017 wasn't that good...had to go to the doctor for a bit in the later half and that was fun. Also it seems that ever since I turned 25 my body is working against me.
I hope 2018 will treat me better. So far it didn't start ok....some health problems and TOTAL lack of inspiration (as you can see by the lack of posts so far).
Things to look forward tho: SnK season 3, the summer production of Engeki Haikyuu and some Marvel movies
Cheers!
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New Year
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Another year has passed and I'm still here. Not as frequently as I used to be back in 2012, let's say, but still more frequently than 2015.
I am really glad I managed to upload at least one deviation per month in 2016, even though the reception of my jumping into yet another fandom other than DBZ is almost non-existant. If only that ever stopped me from posting things I for one think deserve to be put out there. Hah! The internet will not be spared of my traditionally drawn garbage!
So, yes, 2016 was the year of Haikyuu. It started exactly in January 2016 and it hasn't loosened its grip until today. Not complaining. It kept me drawing. (so many characters to choose from, damn!)
Shitty things from 2016: besides the real life crap that you are all aware of, from a fan's POV 2016 was the year Isayama killed Erwin Smith. And Bertholdt. Look at that, now all my 3 SnK OTPs have smth in common. (i'm still not over it and no, I don't want to fully awknowledge it).
One thing did change for the best in 2016: finally changed my job for smth that is at least financially better. Let's hope it will last and that I won't grow to hate it too much
Things to look forward in 2017: SEASON 2 OF SNK!!! FINALLY! It's been 87 years and while I read the manga every month and get a fresh scoop on a steady basis, 4 YEARS IS TOO MUCH FOR A SECOND SEASON! damn.
Maybe with the new season, the SnK fandom will wake up from its slumber and I so hope it will spike my inspiration and motivation to finish my Snk Hospital AU.....I really wanted to finish it in 2016, but since October I haven't drawn one panel for it. And I am so close to the end....
So far 2017 started well. Did draw smth which unfortunately won't be posted bc...nsfw!
Cheers!
I am really glad I managed to upload at least one deviation per month in 2016, even though the reception of my jumping into yet another fandom other than DBZ is almost non-existant. If only that ever stopped me from posting things I for one think deserve to be put out there. Hah! The internet will not be spared of my traditionally drawn garbage!
So, yes, 2016 was the year of Haikyuu. It started exactly in January 2016 and it hasn't loosened its grip until today. Not complaining. It kept me drawing. (so many characters to choose from, damn!)
Shitty things from 2016: besides the real life crap that you are all aware of, from a fan's POV 2016 was the year Isayama killed Erwin Smith. And Bertholdt. Look at that, now all my 3 SnK OTPs have smth in common. (i'm still not over it and no, I don't want to fully awknowledge it).
One thing did change for the best in 2016: finally changed my job for smth that is at least financially better. Let's hope it will last and that I won't grow to hate it too much
Things to look forward in 2017: SEASON 2 OF SNK!!! FINALLY! It's been 87 years and while I read the manga every month and get a fresh scoop on a steady basis, 4 YEARS IS TOO MUCH FOR A SECOND SEASON! damn.
Maybe with the new season, the SnK fandom will wake up from its slumber and I so hope it will spike my inspiration and motivation to finish my Snk Hospital AU.....I really wanted to finish it in 2016, but since October I haven't drawn one panel for it. And I am so close to the end....
So far 2017 started well. Did draw smth which unfortunately won't be posted bc...nsfw!
Cheers!
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Annual Update
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I noticed that my last Journal entry was approximately 1 year ago. I just wanted to write some lines here, either for posterity or for anyone who actually cares to read.
2016 started with a new obsession: Haikyuu. And it hit hard. I mean, it's been more than 7 months and I've gotten in really deep. And ofc I had to just have another ton of pairings, because why the hell would my mind be still for one moment during the day.
Haikyuu is great. From an artistic POV I think Haikyuu brought out the " mature " side of me (which shouldn't really be treated as a good thing, considering these are freakin teenagers and the things I make them do is not ok... but joggling with so many pairings makes me draw different perspectives and sides of...let's call it " love" ).
Going back to SnK, the only thing that made me continue drawing SnK was my Hospital Au. I was determined that this year I would finish it, since I have the whole structure figured out, I know what I have to draw for it, but I think sometime in May I realized....that I don't feel like drawing for it anymore. This thought is really bugging me, as I hate leaving things unfinished. And I was so close...(at this point I have 301 pages drawn and so many milestones to go through). So, yeah, a bit frustrated. Also, let's not forget what shitstorms are happening in the SnK fandom right now, due to the recent manga update. I for one try to stir clear from the fandom, since at times, it becomes ridiculous and so incredibly hateful and bias.
Work-wise, same job for more than a year and a half. Not as bad as it was this time last year, because I have landed on a good morning shift. But I still hope I can go somewhere better, financially wise. Dunno, if it's meant to happen, it will happen. Who am I to want financial success at the age of 24?
So, I guess this is all I had to say. Kind of boring, but hey, being an adult is boring, struggling to still do the things you like is hard and frustrating, because when you do have some spare time, you just don't feel like drawing and then you feel bad for relaxing and not being productive. Dunno, this is how I feel at this time in my life.
Cheers!
2016 started with a new obsession: Haikyuu. And it hit hard. I mean, it's been more than 7 months and I've gotten in really deep. And ofc I had to just have another ton of pairings, because why the hell would my mind be still for one moment during the day.
Haikyuu is great. From an artistic POV I think Haikyuu brought out the " mature " side of me (which shouldn't really be treated as a good thing, considering these are freakin teenagers and the things I make them do is not ok... but joggling with so many pairings makes me draw different perspectives and sides of...let's call it " love" ).
Going back to SnK, the only thing that made me continue drawing SnK was my Hospital Au. I was determined that this year I would finish it, since I have the whole structure figured out, I know what I have to draw for it, but I think sometime in May I realized....that I don't feel like drawing for it anymore. This thought is really bugging me, as I hate leaving things unfinished. And I was so close...(at this point I have 301 pages drawn and so many milestones to go through). So, yeah, a bit frustrated. Also, let's not forget what shitstorms are happening in the SnK fandom right now, due to the recent manga update. I for one try to stir clear from the fandom, since at times, it becomes ridiculous and so incredibly hateful and bias.
Work-wise, same job for more than a year and a half. Not as bad as it was this time last year, because I have landed on a good morning shift. But I still hope I can go somewhere better, financially wise. Dunno, if it's meant to happen, it will happen. Who am I to want financial success at the age of 24?
So, I guess this is all I had to say. Kind of boring, but hey, being an adult is boring, struggling to still do the things you like is hard and frustrating, because when you do have some spare time, you just don't feel like drawing and then you feel bad for relaxing and not being productive. Dunno, this is how I feel at this time in my life.
Cheers!
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